You need professional medical and mental help and you should do yourself a favor and resign so you can concentrate on getting that help. If you want to do what is right for the citizens of NHC, especially those who voted for you, then resign and check yourself into a hospital or a rehab facility. Then try to live a peaceful fulfilling life where you respect boundaries. Acting like a spoiled brat is not setting a good example for anyone. The world does not revolve around you.
Do it now!
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